I suppose the title is a bit dramatic. But every other Sunday my kids are at their Dad’s for the ENTIRE day so I always feel extra guilty if I am not productive partly due to a hangover.
Last night was a night I could have easily said no. Hubs and I were doing taxes (ick) and it was getting late and he opened a beer and eventually I did too with the justification that he’d bought a special kind for me and I could just have a little bit.
And that’s the sucky part – I did have only a little bit! Two 7.5% beers, with food, in bed early, after drinking water.
And still, a slight headache all day. Nothing horrendous, but enough pain to make me regret it.
Otherwise I’ve been doing decent this month, still on track to meet my goal set at the end of Feb.
I’ve been mostly happy to not drink. When I have, it’s very moderate. A couple times at social occasions I don’t regret at all. But there were a couple of those situations I was trying to work on being better about where I reach for the booze purely as a reflex to stress.
Some things that have been going on this month:
-My 90 year old grandma fainting in my arms as my kids and I were leaving her condo. She didn’t entirely pass out but it was quite the ordeal trying to get her off the floor and into bed. Sad and scary, our whole family now trying to assess her ability to live alone.
-TWO friends going through chemo for breast cancer. Two friends with young children, who are close to me, hours spent at the park together, taking care of each other’s kids.
-Some very intense drama with one of my best friends in a potential domestic abuse / drug abuse situation, lots of talks with lawyers about filing for divorce, hours and hours of friend counseling.
-The news that another close “we practically raised our kids together” “almost like family I could call her for anything” friend is moving to a town 1.5 hours away because her husband landed his dream job.
…. in more exciting news, the kids are back in school and after doing lots of research I’m pretty certain my next career move is going to be getting my real estate license. I am grateful for the ability and support from hubs to pursue this. I am grateful for the extra free time I have right now to help my friends who need it. I am grateful for this little community where I can unload all these thoughts and continue to make progress on my relationship with alcohol. xo