Day….13? Meh.

How can less than two weeks feel like such a long time? And at the same time – what is wrong with us that such a short time without alcohol feels so MEH?

As before, most nights I am happy to not drink. I was never an every day drinker. But on the nights that it sounds good – the nights where I have been responsible all day, thinking about everything there is to do, thinking about the heavy issues in life – those are the nights I wish I could just zone out, feel a bit sillier, enjoy some mindless tv.

I realize there are other ways to unwind, but I do not want to go through the effort to learn how to unwind. I am tired. Even though I sleep very well, usually 8 hours per night, easily 10 when I don’t have to be up for anything. Maybe this is just one of the stages of early sobriety and detox? Maybe eventually my body will catch up on sleep and I’ll have SO MUCH energy? How long? I am not a patient person. At this point though, I feel like my curiosity about the benefits of sobriety still outweighs my desire to drink.

It’s also been much colder than usual here in Minnesota. We went from laying on the beach last week to hats and scarves and distance learning this week. I know it is temporary (sun and 80 predicted again for next week), but it is a preview of how hard this winter will be. We have been seeing family and friends frequently outdoors, but not yet comfortable being indoors with anyone. Cases are rising. Lots of schools started back in person. Holidays are coming. It’s depressing to think about. One day at a time….

7 thoughts on “Day….13? Meh.

  1. It’s not easy but you do have to find other ways to unwind and decompress from the stresses of life – part of it is we’re sold the idea that alcohol relaxes us when really it just puts us on a rollercoaster of drunk/hungover/odd good days – even on the worst nights when I really craved in the early weeks I noticed how much better I felt in the mornings and that became a motivator in itself – stop/ starting means you never get to the good parts! It is worth it I promise! 💞💞

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  2. It’s just hard to not feel meh right now sometimes. But keep going with the sobriety. I do think it is worth it, but also, you’ll keep wondering if you don’t. You can always go back to drinking later. And I was super exhausted for the first few weeks, too.

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  3. This is a long game. All the tiredness and boredom and meh is detox. It’s a bit of a mind game,as the addictive voice can easily convince a person that a life without booze is grey.

    It’s not true. Once things clear there are endless possibilities.

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  4. I can only echo what the others have said in their comments. The first few weeks are by far the toughest. I relied on AF drinks for a while. Often just one glass was enough to get me over the hump. Otherwise I went to bed, slept and felt much better when I woke up. I love no longer having the mind battles with myself regarding drinking … such a relief. Keep going. Experience the good stuff, it’s really motivating. Xxx

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