Day 5 – Another Attempt at Moderation?

So, we drank last night. Kids were gone, Hubs had a very stressful day. We got into a long conversation about why we are doing this, what was wrong with our old drinking patterns, how we might want the future of drinking to look.

Why wouldn’t a small amount once or twice a week be ok? That sounds so good in theory. Then why have we never managed to accomplish that? And especially, accomplish it without endless annoying “Is tonight our drinking night, do YOU want to drink tonight, I sort of want to but wonder if other person will mention it first, omg we already used up our drinking nights but I really could use an extra night this week….”

Round and around and around. One of the main reasons I wanted to give it up completely is that I’M TIRED OF THINKING ABOUT DRINKING.

But, we decided to try out the moderation for one month, until our original teetotal start date of Sept. 7.

We biked to the liquor store, returning about 9 p.m. I had two 9% tall boys which probably equals close to 4 units. Plus a bunch of nachos. At least we didn’t stay up too late.

This morning I feel bloated and have a mild headache. We talked when we got up about how it is kind of pathetic we only made it a few days, does alcohol really have its claws in us that deep? Wasn’t the whole point to get used to sober kid free nights until we no longer automatically started drinking then?

I don’t even think we needed to drink last night, I think we needed to feel like we had the option to.

Future plans TBD…. My Jason Vale “Kick The Drink” book should be arriving this week. I think part of the problem is that I have already done SO much reading about the science behind alcohol dependence, and read so many accounts of people who feel great after giving it up, while hubs has just listened to me talk about it, so I am more convinced of the benefits of staying completely dry for a long period.

5 thoughts on “Day 5 – Another Attempt at Moderation?

  1. I don’t want to overstep here but I wonder if giving up together is going to actually hold you both back. If you influence each other in a positive way that’s fine, but it can easily flip the other way too. You perhaps could work towards doing this for you and entirely for you. If hubby wavers then it doesn’t impact on your resolve. Moral support is essential but if someone isn’t 100% about their own commitment to sobriety they can also send you off track!!

    Moderation doesn’t work for me. If it did I’d have been able to do it by now. I can’t be bothered to go back to the days of making deals and bargaining with myself. Too much hassle.

    You will find the right decision for you in the end 😘 🤗

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      1. I’m know that feeling …
        I find I can’t exercise with others because all it takes is for them say ‘let’s give it a miss’ and I’m done for. Any excuse.

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  2. It’s hard when you aren’t in the same place as your partner or friends when it comes to whether to drink or not. Ultimately, you just have to decide for you and you alone. Easier said than done, though. I have no answers but sending hugs! 🤗

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  3. Normally I get a notification when you blog, but havent had any for anyone in the last 24 hours, how annoying.

    I’m the same as Clairei47 I can’t exercise or go sober with anyone else I’m too easily influenced. Plus unfortunately I’ve got that gene where I’m an all or nothing person 🤦‍♀️. I hope you enjoy Jason Vale, it is a bit brainwashy but it really worked for me. And don’t beat yourself up about it, everyone’s “journey” is their own to walk ♡

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